That really broke him because I was his first real relationship

That really broke him because I was his first real relationship I am currently just trying to give him space(been 3days now) but I don’t intend to reach out anymore, because I feel pushed away But I miss and love him so much and I know he loves me too So my boyfriend and I have been together for 7 years. When I initially met him, my then friend, who introduced us told him I was single but I wasn’t exactly single, I had just come out of a relationship and was trying to work things out. I decided to go with the flow that I was single and didn’t have any baggage. 6 months down the line he finds out I lied and that me and my ex had been hanging out. From then on, he started to change gradually, was giving girls more audience and didn’t trust me anymore. So basically he started cheating, then I would cheat, then he would cheat, but we have always loved each other very much but not knowing how to fix the trust. It’s been 7 years now and we are still going back and forth, he’s constantly reminding me of everything I’ve done to hurt him, he has the hardest time letting things go and says that he cannot be with me because I’ve never respected him like he’s my man but I do my best and go out of my way to try to make him feel at his best but it seems to not suffice. […]